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The hardest thing for me to do is nothing. Literally.

This past year, by my definition, wasn’t productive at all. I spent more time doing nothing in those months than I have my entire life.

It was maddening.

But in the silent undisturbed moments, I found Jesus. Like the ghost of Christmas yet to come, He showed me certain truths.

For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.  (1 Timothy 6:7-10)

I could clearly see the life I wanted was spiritually unsound. I was bound to crash and burn. And without the Lord, I wouldn’t have been able to pick up the pieces.

Now that everything is starting to look familiar again, with work, school, and making long-term plans, I feel I’m right back where I was a year ago.

Only this time I’m building my life on a firm foundation in accordance with my faith.

I’m a mother and have a mouth other than my own to feed, so I understand people who reason themselves into worshiping their careers, their bottom lines.

There will always be “reasons” to live a Christian-ish life. After all, it’s easier to let Christ work around us than it is to work around Christ.

But the Bible says there will be layoffs. There will be promotions and bonuses, too.

He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” (Revelation 21:4-5)

If I’m going to slave away under a boss with a god complex, I’d rather work for one who rewards His employees with eternal vacations. Because two weeks isn’t long enough.