Omg, is that what I sound like?!

Okay, so I haven’t been blogging as much this past week. I’ve been in a self-pitying woe-is-me emotional funk characterized by cheap wine and crying myself to sleep.

For the past few days I’ve been wondering how is it that the world is so unbalanced. Why for come guilty parties walk away from their crimes unscathed while their victims are left picking up the pieces and trying to keep from losing the only sliver of sanity they have left.

It’s unfair. Quite frankly, it pisses me off.

I prayed a lot in the past 48 hours. Wondering why the hell God would let things carry on like this. I was so wrapped up in my own problems, feeling bad for myself, wondering when the good Lord would dish out some of His divine justice on the man who I blamed for my unhappiness.

In the middle of my self-absorbed bout of depression, I get a text message.

Someone going on about how unfair life is for them. Upset that their enemy seems to be receiving favor and undeserved blessings. And so on and so forth.

My first thought was, “Omg, quit whining.”

My second thought, “Omg, is that what I sound like?!” 😮

And it really was. Word for word. If I swapped out the name of the person they were mad at with Jim, those messages could have been my very own thoughts sent back at me in the form of a text.

It was crazy but enlightening. From an unbiased standpoint, I read those messages and tried to console the sender by saying that, “People are busy. It isn’t a personal attack against you. Sometimes life doesn’t seem fair, but if we step outside of our own unhappiness, we’d see that it’s not just black and white.”

Like Momma used to say…

What’s good for the goose is good for the gander.

So while feeding that advice to someone else who was in an “oh poor me” kind of mood, I took it myself. It’s not all right or all wrong. There are in-betweens on the great spectrum of good and bad.

you shall not covet your neighbor deuteronomy

In-betweens that no one knows about in detail except God.

It’s so easy to see ourselves as a victim and the rest of the world as the bad guy. But that’s rarely the case.

The truth of it is that everyone feels cheated or denied in some way.

Every. Single. Person.

If everyone who was mad at something they didn’t have chose to guzzle liquor and spend all day in bed feeling bad for themselves, the entire world would come to a standstill.

And there would be a shortage of booze.

And an even greater shortage of bloggers because what are bloggers except professional complainers lol 😛

*Rae

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38 thoughts on “Omg, is that what I sound like?!

  1. Wow how amazing is that. hahaha its obvious that God wanted you back on your blogging because he slapped you right in the face with a reality check. hahaha that’s a joke of course. but it is very admirable that you were humble enough to correct yourself and your behavior and then post about it. A lot of people just stay in that state of mind and blame the world and God for all of their shortcomings. So this blog is very important to the community as it illustrates the proper way to conduct yourself. Spot your flaw and correct it humbly instead of hiding it and hoping no one else spots it.

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  2. Exactly! It’s funny because I had a very specific idea of how I wanted God to respond. Namely with a lightening bolt to ol boy lol and instead I come face-to-face with the real issue. So God responds to prayers, just not always in the way we expect.

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  3. We are complainers, aren’t we? When things aren’t fair, that’s not fair. And we shouldn’t think otherwise. But that’s not all there is, thank goodness. Right now, I’m feeling sick and underemployed and I wonder where the goodness in my life has gone. And why it seems there hasn’t been that much goodness, anyway. Yet if I look with open eyes, I know that some missed goodness was my choice–my wrongful choice. And some goodness never manifest because, as thy hymn observes, “this world with devils filled.” And we try to live spiritually well in between all that. Between the lesser parts of ourselves and the power of a fallen world. Thankfully, what is there–right there, between–is grace and salvation. And freedom in God. Not easy freedom, worse the luck. But, for the faithful, everlasting freedom.

    Thanks for your good and open expression. Your insights encourage and inspire.

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  4. Oh man, I love how God uses other people to pull us out of our funks. I can totally relate to getting reality checks from others indirectly. Way to have courage to share so openly about this on your blog!

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  5. Amen to that! I understand your sentiments so well and I like that hymn. I never heard of it but that’s so true of this world.

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  6. Marisa Ulrich says:

    Great thoughts here. We are all guilty of complaining at one time or another, aren’t we? I love when God gives us a good reality check. Thank you for a needed reminder and God bless.

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  7. Yeah, God pulls out the mirror when we’re in the middle of our whine fest. We all demand fairness, but God asks for our faithfulness in Him and His plans. I prefer not to wallow in whine or wine. Too many regrets on both ends.

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  8. The Lord has words of comfort and promise for you, dear Sister:

    Fret not yourself because of evildoers;
    be not envious of wrongdoers!
    For they will soon fade like the grass
    and wither like the green herb.
    Trust in the LORD, and do good;
    dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
    Delight yourself in the LORD,
    and he will give you the desires of your heart.
    Commit your way to the LORD;
    trust in him, and he will act.
    He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
    and your justice as the noonday.
    Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
    fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way,
    over the man who carries out evil devices!
    Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath!
    Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil.
    For the evildoers shall be cut off,
    but those who wait for the LORD shall inherit the land.
    In just a little while, the wicked will be no more;
    though you look carefully at his place, he will not be there.
    But the meek shall inherit the land
    and delight themselves in abundant peace.

    Psalm 37:1-11 ESV

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  9. It’s funny… so many of us seemed to have that kind of week. Personally, I had one of those weeks where a punching bag would have been welcome. The thing I like about your blog is that it is raw and unfiltered. We all just need… well, life to just take a break sometimes. Anyway, thanks for sharing.

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  10. I believe the “complaining” thing goes away with old age. You realize that the world is what it is, God is where God is supposed to be and doing those things that God does. And guess what? The aging mind has enough trouble remembering where the mayonnaise is, what day my socks were washed, when my next SS check is due, and who took the dog out yesterday that complaining simply isn’t worth the effort anymore. The world sucks and it’s not God’s fault. Not my fault either. It is what it is…oh, I said that before. See what I mean? I could bemoan a mind that is on its downswing or I can appreciate a mind that still remembers how to spell. I love your honesty and can feel your struggle. Chin up.

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  11. Thank you for your comment, Larry. You’re absolutely right too. This time next year I’ll most likely have forgotten what it was that had me so blue in the first place. I appreciate your wisdom, be blessed!

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  12. So many are hurting and it seems that many of them turn to blogging as an outlet to express their hurts. They labor to build the case against themselves.

    That’s the bad news.

    The good news is there is an appetite for good news. Gospel literally translates “Good News”. Let’s feed the hungry

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  13. ceponatia says:

    Life isn’t fair. Fair is a concept constructed by people who liked complaining more than acting. 🙂 The reason bad people get away with bad things is because the good people thought itd be easier to just let it slide rather than hold them accountable.

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  14. Inese Poga Art plus Life says:

    When we are young, we hope to make everything work and we believe in promises. When one reaches 50 and beyond, the perception changes quite a lot. We become more aware of thing which will never happen or never return. Crying at your age is very normal, in fact, crying is good for everybody, it lets the steam out. Really bad depression is when every single cell in the body hurts and there is no desire to even lift one’s hand to get a glass of water. I hope you never experience that. It seems you are in a good relationship with God. https://inesepogalifeschool.com/

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  15. Thank you, Inese! You’re very wise and 1000% right! I do find myself facing really rough depression and it’s not always easy to snap out of it (if you’ve experienced it, then you know!). But God has a way of pulling me up out of it when I’ve done enough moping. Thanks again for your comment! Be blessed (:

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  16. If it makes you feel less sheepish, God hit me in the face with something similar this weekend….
    That, when all we see is death/violence/injustice, we miss out on His life/compassion/mercy. Every heartache, every injury, every injustice we suffer can be turned into something Divinely inspired and Eternally good. If we ask Him to join us, that is. However, I like complaining. And so I usually do a whole heap of that before I get around to inviting God to come and redeem the funk I’m in. Because it’s really hard to sit and complain to God, who suffered actual crucifixion… KWIM?

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  17. That does make me feel better actually (: I’m learning to finally feel my feelings and usually when I get to the point past healthy emotional experience to just being pitiful, the Lord has a way of letting me know. You know what I mean? Thanks for your comment!

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  18. Euangelion– koine Greek for a “good news”. Translated into English as Gospel.
    In a post-Christian culture that is struggling to recover from Puritanical distortions of “good news”, while combating the falsity of Prosperity Theology– WE are the Gospel. Our lives serve as evidence that God in Christ has been among us, and He suffered, died, but has risen. Sometimes, people see only our sufferings. And that’s ok. Plenty of people are suffering. When the Gospel of Consumerism preaches to us, night and day, that suffering is equivalent to failure– we need the good news that even God wasn’t too good for suffering. Rae is a testimony to that good news. And I applaud her vulnerability and nakedness before God.

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  19. controversialchristian1 says:

    I’ve been hitting the self pity store myself recently. I’m fed up with my shit life, the up and down shit health I have, the fact I can’t get a job because of my health, I am too shy to really start a romance, that when I am with people I want to be alone and vice versa, and I don’t know who I am anymore. Oh, and the cat’s gone missing.

    Apart from that, I’m fine.

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  20. Aw, Contro! When it rains, it pours they say 😥 stay strong, though! I hope your cat turns up. Cats are selfish and always come back around when they get hungry enough

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  21. eharper4 says:

    “And there would be a shortage of booze.”
    FACTS.

    Well said. It’s easy to get caught up in what pains us in this world. Fortunately, we have that future hope that one day, we’ll be with Him. It’s hard to put that in perspective, harder still to keep it. But in the moments that we do, the world looks a little less like crap 🙂 Perception-perception-perception.

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