I have prayed on more than one occasion for God to fix me and take away all the turmoil I felt within. Between pain of the past and anxiety of the future, I was a wreck.
With a combination of faith, counseling, and antidepressants I think I’ve achieved a nice mental and emotional balance. At first I thought the antidepressants would make all the negative feelings disappear. Like street drugs. Turn the bad feelings into good feelings.
That’s not the case.
I still experience anger, annoyance, sadness, and stress. However the magnitude of these emotions have drastically diminished. I can feel bad without going overboard. I never knew this is how people are suppose to be. I was so used to intense negative feelings that I thought they were normal.
It’s worth saying that the antidepressants alone are not enough.
My thought processes contributed a great deal to my depression. There are no magic pills to fix the way you think. The counseling has been great for that. What I discovered was the thoughts that made so much sense to me in my mind… did not make much sense after all.
After two months of counseling and over a month on antidepressants, I no longer feel like a slave to my emotions and thoughts.
I am so grateful to the Lord for leading me to people who could help me. I still have a ways to go, but this is really good progress.
For the first time in my life, I feel normal.