This post has been a long time coming. With the recent Women’s March on Washington and the topic of abortion. I guess now is as good a time as any to share.
I used to be Pro-Choice.
And really, I wasn’t Pro-Choice, I was Pro-Whatever the Hell I Want To Do.
Living like Cartman, “What-eva, I do what I want.”
Then in my final year of college, I got knocked up. I didn’t think twice about scheduling an abortion. It was my body, my life, my choice, my blah, blah, blah…
So there I was alone. Sitting in the clinic, waiting to reclaim control over my life.
Truthfully though, I never had control over my life.
I was mad at God because He allowed me to get pregnant and I remember thinking, “I wouldn’t be at this clinic if You let Plan B work like I wanted. Whatever happens is Your fault.”
At that point in my life, when things weren’t going my way, I always found a way to hold God responsible.
Soon, I was up. The doctor did an ultrasound, then told me I was too far along and would need to reschedule for a second trimester abortion.
I went to the receptionist, she asked when I wanted to reschedule. In that moment, I felt a surreal calm. It coulda been shock or the Holy Spirit. Either way, in that moment, I knew I was keeping the little Sperm Blossom.
I didn’t reschedule.
It was a Divine sign that I was meant to have my baby. That’s what I chose to believe.
Looking back, I’m almost brought to tears. Tears of shame. Tears of joy. The Lord saved me from a mistake that I wasn’t prepared to live with.
Abortion is murder. I’ve always believed that, but the magnitude of it didn’t engulf me until I look at my beautiful baby girl. Growing up, seeing her smile, seeing the joy and love she brings into this world.
Don’t misunderstand, I do not judge those who have had abortions. It’s not my place. And it is only the grace of God that prevented me from having one myself.
And if we must get technical, Moses commited murder and he did great things. So there is redemption for those who give their lives to the Lord- regardless of what they’ve done.
My experiences have made me 100% Pro-Life. Life for the baby. Life for the mother. Just life. No shortcuts and no easy outs.
“What about in the case of rape?” Well, I’m glad you asked!
Cuz I got something to say on that, too.
I’m not here to push the Pro-Life agenda. I’m just throwing my voice out there with the rest of em. Because of all those chanting, “Pro-Choice,” or, “Pro-Life,” only a handful have ever been in the theoretical situations they’re so passionately arguing against.
For those with strong opinions and no experience, kindly sit ya ass down.
Lord, have mercy.