Full Disclosure

Christ loves us. A degenerate race of selfish entities granted eternal life by the blood of Jesus. The blood spilled because of us is the blood that was spilled for us.

I wanted to preface the post with this fundamental truth as a beautiful reminder of what matters most.


Several of those who follow(ed) Real as the Streets brought to my attention that I’m not a good example for Christianity.

I’m afraid that’s true.

I’m not a good example. In fact, I’m not an example at all.

I’m just a sinner with a blog and no spiritually redeeming qualities outside of my faith in Christ.


53 thoughts on “Full Disclosure

  1. You were, a sinner, you are now a saint. But they just don’t understand what it means to be a saint… Even other saints are still confused. Sainthood is not about perfection. It isn’t about your personal qualities. I follow your blog because your sainthood is apparent in your commitment to the Lord. That is sainthood. We are committed, we love Him, we are flawed but our hearts are in the right place. You needn’t have responded to them. And I’m glad to see you online too. My son and I prayed for you. xoxoxoxo

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  2. Thank you, Rashida! I could use all the prayers I can get. I really needed this comment. The most challenging aspect of walking with Christ is when religious people say things to make you second-guess your relationship with Him. Thank you for your kind words. Be blessed, sister!

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  3. Regarding your last sentence, self-flagellation is not good, but weakness and humility are. I believe that we can do no good thing on our own and that God should get credit for all good works that flow through us. He knows your heart and your language, if lacking blasphemy, lies, plots to do evil, etc., do not keep Him from that knowledge. Some sepulchres are whiter on the outside than others, but it is the inside that matters. Keep growing, pray for peace, shalom, shalom, shalom.

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  4. Hey Rae, read Ephesians 1 and 2. That’s who you are and that’s how God sees all of us through the blood of Christ. Don’t sell yourself cheap cuz you’re not for sale. It’s easy to have a carnal mindset cuz we’re born into Adam but when we were born again, all things became new (2 Corinthians 5:17) and we are now God’s righteousness (2 Corinthians 5:21) Put off the old and put on the new.
    Think about it.

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  5. Rae, you are a blessing. He loves you unconditionally. And I appreciate your honesty. We all fall short of the glory of God, but we are freely justified by grace through the redemption that is in Christ…. Regrardless of what others think or say, He chose you! That makes you special in my eyes. Blessings from Florida

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  6. You and your blog are a blessing. 1 Timothy 4:12 says we are to be examples. So you are an example. An example of someone doing their best to follow God and sharing that journey along the way. Don’t let anyone take that from you. Be blessed. You are who God says you are. And I love your realness!

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  7. Sooooo….. I actually have an in-progress, back-burner post about “That’s not how any of this works” … basically, how it’s challenging to commit openly to being a Christian because many eyes swarm every part of you with judgement. People equate Christianity with perfection and I truly believe that’s why we lose so many people from this walk. I imagine God shaking His head like in the esurance commercial, saying, “That’s not how it works. That’s not how any of this works.” I hesitated to blog for so long and still hesitate before every post because the enemy whispers to my ego “that’s stupid,” “no body cares,” “you don’t even know your Bible like that,” “you’re nobody.” When I recognize those lies are from the devil, I remember to reverse everything he says, connecting to our Savior… “This is amazing because it’s divinely motivated,” “everybody might not care but because God spoke it into my spirit, it’s a word for somebody,” “I might not know my Bible like I’d like to yet, but God knows my heart and still chooses to use me,” “It doesn’t matter who I am to this world, I know I am spectacular in my Father’s eyes. His plan for me is a spiritual rock-star… even if that’s just during my prayer time.”

    So, the fact that anyone would take the time to comment to you about what type of Christian you are or aren’t, says that this opposition is opportunity. The devil is like, “Oh, no. We got to shut her up.” Adjust your crown, eyes on Jesus, and shout your testimony even louder. I like to think of it like giving the enemy a one-two punch. 🙂 Remember who qualifies you. That is ALL that matters… the rest is none of your concern.

    Hugs and rockstar prayers,

    E. Bobe’

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  8. E. Bobe’, Thank you, thank you! When I get negative comments from people who say I have no business blogging about Christianity, I wonder if they’re right. If maybe I’m doing more harm than good. Then God sends me people like you and I know I’m on the right path. We’re on the right path. Together, encouraging each other in love towards Christ there is no shame. Your words and the words of our true brothers and sisters in Christ have the power to change and inspire. I feel so hopeful. Satan doesn’t stand a chance when we’re unified in faith.

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  9. Rae, you already know I’m a fan. Your honesty and your love for the Lord and all things GOoD comes through. Don’t believe the enemy when he tries to hush you. Keep doing what you are doing! Peace always.

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  10. No one is perfect. I like the comment that said, “opposition is opportunity.” We can look at criticism and see if there are any truths. What kind of light are we showing? Does it reflect Christ? Are there things we can give to God? Are there things we can work on?
    It isn’t about “being” the perfect example. It’s about LIVING and following the footsteps of Christ. We need to continually grow.
    Are we leaky vessels? Yes! Will people see that? Sure! Should a few weeks/months from now they see a difference in us as we grow? YES! We should be a living testimony.
    We all have different things we struggle with. My advice to you, what we have to keep in mind as a blogger, especially as a Christian, are we writing things that might stumble up other believers? Things that aren’t productive. Things Jesus probably wouldn’t say. That’s the main key to keep in mind 🙂
    If there is anything personally in your walk with Christ you aren’t happy with, give it to God and work on it. ❤ But don't let people be the reason behind those actions. Free will is a choice for a reason. 🙂 Blessings be upon you.

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  11. Rae, as many of the posters have stated, we all come with flaws. This means we sin; we do and say things that don’t align with the Holy Father whom we profess to love and desire. Your spiritual growth and maturity have already been predetermined by the Lord. He knows how/when you will arrive at each level of faith, action, commitment, trust, openness, surrender, love, and every other position He has established along your journey. May I be so bold to tell you to stop looking at your life through the eyes (minds) of others. Can I say that to you? If you focus, Biblically, you will notice that everyone God used for His service–male or female–matured throughout the stories of their lives as depicted in the Bible. They were foolish and yet became wise. They suffered infirmities but were, in numerous cases, healed. They were chosen by God; yet, they erred oft. Nevertheless, the Lord used them as a witness of who He is.
    You know who Rahab is, right? You do know that our Christ came through her bloodline, don’t you? What am I saying? I’m saying exactly what the Word of God tells us: “…God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;” (1 Corinthians 1:27)
    Rae, just let the Lord order your steps. Likewise, allow Him to reveal himself to you in a manner that allows you to grow continuously through yielding more and more to Him. Study yourself, according to the Word, and accept His grace to grow from faith to faith.
    Forgive all of, please, myself included, who publicly and/or privately attempted judging you. The Lord snapped me up “real quick” and told me to pray, making me see my own consistent imperfections. He also revealed this to me: you, Rae, are willing to put your imperfections on display; most of us aren’t. When one person does it, it obligates others to do the same. People then become uncomfortable. Perhaps you have been given the gift of transparency. Continue to use your gift, and the Lord will continue to BLESS you.
    Thank you for being REAL.

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  12. I want to add, there’s nothing wrong with feeling convicted. If you feel your spirit pricked, and you think, “You know, maybe I should work on this part of my life because it doesn’t represent Christ.” That’s not bad! That doesn’t make you a bad person. It means your spirit is willing to listen to the Holy Spirit. There’s a difference though, if people are trying to make you feel ashamed versus if the Spirit wants you to work on something, give something to Him.
    Keep being real Rae 🙂 your honesty with help others.

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  13. I love that you’re so real. You are human, and if you were perfect, you’d either be Jesus or you’d already be in heaven. It’s hard to be yourself when others who don’t understand Christianity expect us to be something that’s unattainable here on earth. Spoiler alert for the haters: we’re all miserable advertisements for a Christian walk if we’re to compare ourselves to Jesus and not each other. BUT we’re a wonderful advertisement for grace and what it covers.

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  14. Hi Rae,
    I heard someone say that every time believer’s judge, criticize, and attack each other, they are literally crucifying Jesus Christ all over again! As the body of Christ, we are one, with Him as the head. Even if someone stumbles and makes a mistake, the right attitude is to run and embrace them, because love is the only remedy for all our failings. Keep moving forward with Jesus.
    Shalom, sister Rae.

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  15. So sorry that you were made to feel this way Rae. There are so many verses that cover this, don’t judge, don’t be a stumbling block to your brother, whoever is without sin cast the first stone, pull the beam out of your eyes before you pull the splinter out of your brothers eye….of course I’m paraphrasing but they all fit. You are a beloved child of God. You keep listening to Him, not “man”. God bless you 🙂

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  16. Ok. But He won’t leave you that way. Max Lucado tells the story of a house his wife fell in love with. She loved everything about it. So they bought it. What did she do? She changed everything!

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  17. *Rae,
    I want to thank you for your bravery and honesty, baring your heart and your desire to follow Christ. This alone is enough of an example. He knows we aren’t perfect, nor does He expect us to be. We follow His will and give Him glory in all we do.
    I look forward to reading your posts because you are just sharing your thoughts and feelings while walking with Jesus.
    Way too often, we are criticized by the very people who are supposed to love all and judge none. We must continually give every care, problem and situation over to Jesus, let Him take it to the Father, and trust that God has already worked it for His glory and given us the victory.
    Stay encouraged. We are here supporting and praying for you.
    – Z

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  18. You have my blessing
    I would bless you anyway
    Even if you were
    The worst wretch of all
    But you are not
    However you are loved by God
    If you know and are that
    Then your love is from God
    They can tell you otherwise
    But it will be to their demise

    Love loves you
    As do I
    Peace and pray

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  19. Be encouraged Rae! Yes, God’s grace is for all of us! … One of the most wonderful things about the Bible He gave us, is that is is full of imperfect people forgiven, made whole, and used by God. The light shines on Him and He is discovered in our weakness. I am so thankful for that!

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  20. It sounds like the seventh chapter of the letter to the Romans–the good I want to do is not the good I do, but the evil I do not want to do, that I keep on doing. We all sin every day and need the Lord’s forgiveness every day. At the same time, we are indeed saints every day–not because of what we do, but because of what Jesus has done. He is the only perfect example of a Christian, but each of us is slowly being transformed into his likeness. J.

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  21. You are such a precious soul! Don’t you ever let some religious brood of vipers deter you from serving the Lord. You do not serve Him by your qualifications, but by His. Remember, it was the religious elite that crucified our Lord. You are saved by His precious blood, period. He will sanctify you by His Word, not by the clubs of man. I remember when i got saved i was still addicted to smoking. Why, you would of thought I was committing the unpardonable sin! Oh the horror of it all…idiots. The Lord delivered me later on this, but even if He hadn’t, then what? My sin was yet covered. These same “christians” accusing me that had their own secret sin. Don’t get me started! You just keep going and pay no mind to the haters!

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  22. Rae, like Jesus, you upset their “tables”. Keep your eyes up and on the One who knows the heart. Your post are from yours and beautiful. Blessings and I am sorry you had to endure this, but what did Jesus Himself say, ” Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for they persecuted the prophets who were before you.” Matt 5:11-12. Your reward is great!!

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  23. A. Byram says:

    Sometimes, when we’re on a road less traveled we have a tendency to get lost, not unlike sheep. Although it’s been a few years since I, myself, have “attended” church I seem to recall that Jesus is often called the Good Shepard. It’s with His guidance, patience, love and grace that we are guided back or led to the safe green pastures.

    I have faith and it’s that faith that made me realize that it’s ok if I cuss, lose my temper, get frustrated with people around me and make mistakes. I’m not perfect and I can’t seem to ever remember meeting such a person in my life, therefore if I’m condemned to hell by other christians because I’m not where they think I should be with my walk with Christ then may I suggest taking it to God, because it’s in His time that I’ll be where I’ll need to be…… not a moment sooner or later.

    I will, however, end on a brighter note. I’m a lot better than I use to be and have been blessed to witness many, many works of my Lord. Not cases of it may have been, but testimonies that leave NO doubt that it was His doing.

    So Rae, don’t ever become a good example, but instead lead by example…..there were so many times I wanted to give up, felt defeated, alone, like everything was always going against me no matter how hard I tried. It was then that I’d hear a reassuring voice whisper, it is through you that the people will see My works.

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  24. I learned a long time ago, that you can’t please everyone. Stop trying. There are only two that you must please. That is God, and then yourself. Everyone else is just frosting.
    The only perfect Christian is Christ.

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  25. Timothy Matthis says:

    You must take this opportunity to grow. If you are doing something you think contradicts Christ-like behavior, evaluate it and try to wean off of it (for instance, smoking or drinking, shacking, or fornication (save yourself for marriage for example). It is true that people will get offended. Even the ones that are not Christian because even if they do not follow Christ, they believe you shouldn’t represent something if you are not living the lifestyle to the best of your ability. You started this blog not too long ago and you will start to become better and better in Christ in helping others like the homeless, etc. You will see your true light and then all the worldly things (the things I mentioned above) that you do or have done will feel out of place. In other words, you will not want anything to do with them, because they do not feel right. It takes away your dignity, and we must have will power. I admire the fact that you are trying.

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  26. I have to agree wit you Rae. If people are looking at me, you, a pastor, or anyone else as an example of how we are going to live in Heaven, they are missing the point, mark, the entire message. Don’t let people like that fool with your mind. They are one of two types of Christians. They either convinced themselves, they are perfect and it is their mission to change the world, to be exactly like themselves. What a boring Heaven that would be. The other type find someone to look up to as an example, and set their sites on that target. Which is, do I need to say it? Far below the bar Christ set. If I can plant a seed, the Bible tells us, as a matter of fact Jesus said, “another plows, another gathers.” Well what does that mean? What about the rain? I don’t want people looking at me as an example of someone who can make it rain. What about that….. code, or whatever it is in that seed that tells is it is time, and safe to sprout? I have no idea what that is, how to place that in a seed, or in a human being. I am not about to take responsibility for another person’s decisions or views on eternal life. That’s not my job. Then again, maybe it should be. A lot of people make pretty good livings by telling people what to do, when to do it, and how to do it. Maybe we are on the wrong side of this religious equation. We ain’t making any money….???? Then again, didn’t Jesus have a few little talks about money, this world, and Heaven?

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  27. Even though I am a Christian, I don’t feel qualified to make any “religious” comments. But I can say without a shadow of a doubt you are reaching my heart. I always look forward to reading your blog! Thank you!

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  28. Fred, I actually did not know that Christ came through Rahab’s bloodline! I appreciate your insight, I always do. Honestly, I knew I’d be taking a risk putting myself out there. It’s easier to judge. I’m guilty of it myself, but just like with you, God is working with me on my weaknesses. Thank you for your wisdom along the way. You’ve been a blessing. The way you present information is never judgemental or self-righteous. Always in love and sincerity. For that I am grateful.

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  29. Hi Rae

    We are who we are mostly because of our life experiences and our inherited DNA. Humility is a good quality but self-deprecation can lead to more sin just as easily as to less. I believe that although we all sin we are not all sinners unless we become addicted to sin; regular consumption of small amounts of alcohol does not make us alcoholics but dependence on imbibing large quantities does.

    I find that the scriptures give us confusing messages about who will be saved. There are scriptural passages that suggest that those who reject Christ shall be consigned to everlasting punishment. Other scriptural passages suggest that it is God who decides and that we have no choice! Below is a useful link that discusses this issue:


    There are scriptural passages that suggest that all humans will be saved; the link below quotes some:


    Only God knows what will happen to us so I think it is unwise to imagine that we know from our interpretations of scripture or from what we feel in our hearts. We should love God and one another, as Christ showed us during His incarnation on our planet. I think that’s the best we can do.

    I hope this is useful to you and I thank you for all your lovely posts which I have followed but not commented on.

    Peace and love to all,


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  30. Forgive me for being late with responding to your post.

    I agree with everyone that mentioned that you are a good example of a Christian follower. 1 John 5:1 (NIV) says “Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God, and everyone who loves the father loves his child as well.”

    Because we may have experienced life challenges or perhaps not have been fortunate enough to grow up in a Christian household (myself) does not allow anyone to downgrade me and my faith in Jesus Christ and sharing what I learned and know about Him with my sisters and brothers in Jesus Christ’s Name. Of course, no one on earth is perfect in any way, shape, or form (Jesus Christ was the only one). So when people challenge you or naysayers bring you down, keep your head up, dust yourself off, and keep on walking. That is exactly what I am doing. 🙂

    Keep speaking about whatever is on your mind because only our spiritual enemy desires for us to keep and hold anger within our hearts. Not our Savior. Keeping you in my prayers, Rae’. Stay strong. 🙂

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  31. Rae,
    Aren’t we all in the same boat. We are a mess that is why we need him 24/7. I have heard that the closet you get to the Lord the more you see what a sinned you are. I see it as the doctor being able to get down deep and cleaning out old wounds.
    Keep on in Christ,
    On Thu, Sep 14, 2017 at 5:41 PM Real as the Streets wrote:
    > *Rae posted: “Christ loves us. A degenerate race of selfish entities > granted eternal life by the blood of Jesus. The blood spilled because of us > is the blood that was spilled for us. Several of those who follow(ed) Real > as the Streets brought to my attention that I’m n” >

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  32. Unfortunately, many people are still under a “religious spirit”…they haven’t found the Freedom that comes from knowing you are a son or daughter. They are still eating from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.
    The Father loves you and He sent His Son to die for you just like He did for all who would call on His name. Your blog speaks to so many who need to see and hear that our change is a process. Our Savior is big enough to handle spicy language and sees through the rough exterior to the heart that He changes from stone to flesh. He will also help those who need to see that Christianity can’t be fully experienced if it has to be squeezed into a mold. It’s not Freedom to have “cookie cutter”, robot Christians. Pray for those who persecute you…and know that your honesty and openness is refreshing and endearing in many ways. I can only imagine and also pray for it to really speak to the lost, the unchurched of the world who need to hear it.
    I’ll end with one more reminder…know that He loves you and is pleased with how you are seeking Him and sharing Him with others through your own experiences. Romans 12:2 KJV
    And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

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  33. After replying as I did, later this evening someone encouraged me to listen to a pastor I’ve never heard of before…He said this man used to be a Muslim and was converted to Christianity. I personally haven’t heard his story so I don’t know for sure. Anyway, I chose this YouTube video for the title to see what he had to say and thought I would share it with you…I felt the Holy Spirit’s conviction. Remember though, conviction by the Holy Spirit is loving and kind. Condemnation comes from the enemy. Conviction says, “I don’t like what you did but I still love you.” Condemnation says, “You’re a bad person…who could love you?”
    Just food for thought sister…be blessed.

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  34. Thank you, Jackie!
    I found the YouTube you included in your last post interesting and useful.
    Your thought that our condemnation comes from the enemy is commendable. The Church Fathers gave this message too. Also, they wrote that God did not send His Son as a ransom for us but Christ freely offered Himself.
    Peace and love to all,

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  35. Stay encouraged sister. This week alone showed us that we all struggle with grace and being a loving example of Christ. However, forgiveness is what we humbly seek and by grace we are given. Even i was convicted this week and had to meditate on a song all day…I kept it on loop because my soul needed to reconnect to our loving Father.

    Here’s a link to the song I was listening to. I hope it blesses you.

    Keep moving forward. Keep seeking. Keep trusting. Keep Praying.

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  36. Love this post and I love that you stepped out and shared your thoughts. If we are all as honest and real and authentic as this, (and we should be) we would all fail in the “great Christian example” category in someones eyes. Right? I am so glad that it is not about us performing but about the great example of our Savior who loves US – just as we are, at all times, no matter what. Blessings

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  37. I understand what it’s like to be under the looking glass of people more concerned with casting stones than writing in the sand: it is something everyone who follows God into grace and power finds, the promised persecution, like Jesus, not from the world, but from his very own religious authorities, the pharisees, the government, and even his own disciple.

    Your response is poetic: “claiming to know nothing but Christ and Christ crucified.” That’s so amazing, that in the face of someone saying you’re not enough, you can reply with confidence, “I know! He’s made perfect in my weakness!” and never have to look back and identify yourself by your failures or past behaviors: He has made all things new!

    I look forward to seeing future posts, thanks for writing this, I’ll be sure to follow this blog to see future posts, and I would adore to have someone like you read anything I wrote! God bless!

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