Stay in Control

So last night I prayed for humility. I knew it was a prayer that needed to be said because I prayed each word with a little bite.

Like my ego was saying, “I don’t need to be more humble. I’m perfect as I am and humility is for p-” and my spirit was like, “Shut the hell up, ego! I’m tryna keep us out of the eternal pit! *Clears throat* As I was saying Lord, help me to tame my arrogant ways.”

And, yes, I recognized the possibility that I may suffer from schizophrenia. But that’s irrelevant.

The point is, I’ve started telling myself, “no.” Yesterday I got home after work, ready to chow down on some lit sushi. But then I realized I wanted it too much. So I decided to fridge the food, shower, and straighten up a bit. Then ate.

Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control. (Proverbs 25:28)

It’s pretty empowering to feel in control of your own behaviors. Spirit leading the body and not the other way around.

Stay in control,

*Rae

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17 thoughts on “Stay in Control

  1. Every Christian suffers from schizophrenia. “For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.” Galatians 5:17

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  2. Rae, you made me laugh at your schizophrenia comment.
    Last night I finished listening to the book Forgotten God by Frances Chan. Letting the Holy Spirit lead is a lot of what his book is about. If you haven’t read it yet it would be worth your while. Good words.
    Thanks for your honesty about struggling to let the Spirit lead and being humble. I share that struggle with you.
    Letting go so He can Control,
    Jon K

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  3. Rae, you’re as real as the title of your blog. Whoever told you that you don’t represent Christ needs a little humility themselves. You are a breath of fresh air to the church body. Are you perfect? Nope. But are you growing in Him? For sure!
    Love you sista!
    KEEP THE LIGHT ON!

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  4. I love the verse! I also connect with you on the level that we can both use “lit” and “sushi” in the same scentence. 😂
    We all can use an ego check every once and a while, though we hate to admit it. Thanks for this post!

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  5. Rae, thanks for posting. Some people give the body more emphasis, I’m not saying we shouldn’t take care of our body, but we should know that we’re more of spiritual being than bodily/physical one.

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