Stay in Control

So last night I prayed for humility. I knew it was a prayer that needed to be said because I prayed each word with a little bite.

Like my ego was saying, “I don’t need to be more humble. I’m perfect as I am and humility is for p-” and my spirit was like, “Shut the hell up, ego! I’m tryna keep us out of the eternal pit! *Clears throat* As I was saying Lord, help me to tame my arrogant ways.”

And, yes, I recognized the possibility that I may suffer from schizophrenia. But that’s irrelevant.

The point is, I’ve started telling myself, “no.” Yesterday I got home after work, ready to chow down on some lit sushi. But then I realized I wanted it too much. So I decided to fridge the food, shower, and straighten up a bit. Then ate.

Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control. (Proverbs 25:28)

It’s pretty empowering to feel in control of your own behaviors. Spirit leading the body and not the other way around.

Stay in control,

*Rae

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Reality Check, Mah Ninja

My cultural identity has evolved over the years. Growing up biracial in the South, I didn’t know whether to listen to Skynyrd or Pac. (So I chose both)

Being submerged in two distinct Southern cultures saturated with Christian teachings has its advantages and disadvantages.

Disadvantage: Making decisions without feeling ostracized by your peers who are, for all intents and purposes, walking stereotypes.

Example: When dealing with escalated confrontation from another party do I kick they ass? Bless their heart? Or turn the other cheek?

Advantage: Realizing you get the best of all worlds.

Example: When dealing with escalated confrontation from another party, I use a progressive strike system. Turn the other cheek, bless their heart, then kick they ass.

Yeah… Jesus puts in overtime with me. #workinprogress

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Christ’s Love vs. God’s Law

Christianity is a faith of contradiction.

The reason is that we base our life on the Bible. Which has the Old Testament and the New Testament. Don’t get me wrong, there are certain themes that have strong consistency throughout the Good Book.

But the Old Testament includes books of the Torah:

  • Genesis
  • Exodus
  • Leviticus
  • Numbers
  • Deuteronomy

So mixing aspects of the religion of Judaism with Christianity. Well, it can be a bit messy.

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Satan is Good…

This morning I was getting ready for work. A little ethnic background about yours truly: I’m mixed. If I must be reduced to colors- black and white.

And, yes, I live in the South. I could have an entire blog dedicated to being mixed in the South. However, that’s not the topic of the day as you can tell by my paradoxical blog post title.

No, ladies and gents. We’re here to discuss that sneaky snake in the grass, Satan.

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My 3 Favorite Things about God

God is a mystery I haven’t even begun to understand. I don’t know where He came from or why He exists. The Bible is my only insight into the profound entity that is God. But based on what I’ve read from His words… There are a few of His characteristics that I really like.

1. He is a creator. It’s one thing to create something from something. It’s another to create something from nothing. Countless Bible stories show God’s most impressive creations come from nothing. He built the world from nothing. He turned slaves into powerful tribes. Shepherds into kings. Harlots into heroines. And so much more.

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Christian False Advertising

Allow me to rant about my biggest pet peeve when it comes to Christianity. I’m talking about how mainstream Christianity has photoshopped Jesus into a marketable brand.

Mr. Christ is not a product.

Yet in this era of commercialism, our Lord and Saviour has been reduced to something of a commodity.

When marketers want to sell something what do they do? They doll it up and advertise. Please don’t misunderstand. I’m not bashing the Christian responsibility of sharing of the gospel.

I’m referring to all advertisements of Jesus as a blue-eyed Anglo Saxon.

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So love.

I’ve been thinking. As use.

And one question I find myself asking is, “What is the truest form of love?”

Is it involuntary like a heartbeat? Like a mother’s love for her child.

Or deliberate and purposeful? Like Hosea’s pursuit of Gomer?

Is it easy and natural or complex and difficult?

Did Christ go to the cross because He chose to love us? Or because He is love?

I wonder if humans are even capable of real love. 

Or has the concept been so soiled with self-gratification​ and commercialism that we wouldn’t- or couldn’t- recognize it, even if it was hand delivered to our doorstep.

*Rae