I have questions.
Why does God let evil exist?
Why does He permit pain?
How can He sit by while His creations, His children, suffer?
There are apologetics and theologians with quick answers. Most sound pretty good. But outside the Mind of God, responses to such questions are grossly inadequate and unsatisfying.
Apologetic work is so dangerous to one’s faith. A doctrine never seems dimmer to me than when I have just successfully defended it. – C.S. Lewis
But that’s okay.