So last night I prayed for humility. I knew it was a prayer that needed to be said because I prayed each word with a little bite.
Like my ego was saying, “I don’t need to be more humble. I’m perfect as I am and humility is for p-” and my spirit was like, “Shut the hell up, ego! I’m tryna keep us out of the eternal pit! *Clears throat* As I was saying Lord, help me to tame my arrogant ways.”
And, yes, I recognized the possibility that I may suffer from schizophrenia. But that’s irrelevant.
The point is, I’ve started telling myself, “no.” Yesterday I got home after work, ready to chow down on some lit sushi. But then I realized I wanted it too much. So I decided to fridge the food, shower, and straighten up a bit. Then ate.
Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control. (Proverbs 25:28)
It’s pretty empowering to feel in control of your own behaviors. Spirit leading the body and not the other way around.
Stay in control,
In contrast to last night’s study on humility this evening I went over confidence. Interestingly enough, I didn’t intend on studying confidence.
I always believed myself a confident woman. But after reading what the Bible had to say on the subject, I realized I wasn’t really confident. Just some unbalanced combination of narcissistic and proud.
Based on what I read, this is what I gathered…
Humility, like patience, is another one of those topics that is prevalent throughout the Good Book, but not always so popular to discuss.
Which is a shame because could you imagine how much better the history of the world would have been if people adhered to the rules of humility? Not going to name names:
*Lucifer* *Babylon* *Pharaoh*
Just to not name a few. But I’m not here to point fingers, I do want to share what I learned about humility and how it enhances my relationship with the Lord.