Stay in Control

So last night I prayed for humility. I knew it was a prayer that needed to be said because I prayed each word with a little bite.

Like my ego was saying, “I don’t need to be more humble. I’m perfect as I am and humility is for p-” and my spirit was like, “Shut the hell up, ego! I’m tryna keep us out of the eternal pit! *Clears throat* As I was saying Lord, help me to tame my arrogant ways.”

And, yes, I recognized the possibility that I may suffer from schizophrenia. But that’s irrelevant.

The point is, I’ve started telling myself, “no.” Yesterday I got home after work, ready to chow down on some lit sushi. But then I realized I wanted it too much. So I decided to fridge the food, shower, and straighten up a bit. Then ate.

Like a city whose walls are broken through is a person who lacks self-control. (Proverbs 25:28)

It’s pretty empowering to feel in control of your own behaviors. Spirit leading the body and not the other way around.

Stay in control,

*Rae

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20 Must Study Bible Study Topics

 

20 Must Study Bible Study Topics

Last year, I took Joyce Meyer’s #3030challenge. I studied the Bible daily for 30 minutes then posted what I learned. I’d like to go back and share some of the topics that were particularly eye-opening. I hope you find them helpful!

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One of Those Nights

I’m drinking an Amaretto Sour (heavy on Ameretto, light on sour) and watching For Colored Girls.

Tonight is going to be one of those nights.

When my old foe, Depression, attempts to pull me into the dark abyss of self-pity and hopelessness this is the Bible verse I cling to:

He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death, or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. (Revelation 21:4)

I’m sharing this for all those with tears, pain, and heartache.

Pray, persist, and prepare for a time when all this will be a forgotten memory.

*Rae

Wait?! Ugh.

I’ve been in an emotional slump. Not full blown depression, but still. When life strikes a blow at my happiness, I want to react. I want to act. Fight or flight. Something!

So I prayed.

And prayed.

And praaaaaaayed.

And the Lord sends the same reply, “Wait.” Be patient.

Ugh.

I feel life is passing me by and all I want to do is catch up.

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